Rainbow II

   Last week I said I'd pour a rainbow of colors onto the page and see what happened. Let's try it. Since this is a journal, I will talk about what has recently made me...
Angry: A few weeks ago I accidentally (don't ask) ordered a book on crime from the inter-library loan program. I ended up reading it anyway. The book focused mainly on high-profile crimes, and included pictures. While I must admit there was some fear and sadness involved, the main emotion was anger, and I don't think that's a bad thing. While it was a difficult book to read, it also gave me an insight into how much Jesus has done for me. The Bible says there are no big sins or little sins, only sins. My own sins may not physically be as ugly as murder, they are still sins, and just as ugly, spiritually.
Excited: How God had me in mind from the very beginning of the world. He chose my base characteristics from among the genes of my parents, and then he left it up to me what I would do with them.
Nervous: Preparing for college, wondering what the future holds for me.
Happy: My wonderful family. Music. Also, coming up with a good blog post idea :)
Think: The book,Anthem, by Ayn Rand. It was very interesting and I have only once read a book like it.
Dream: An idea for an extended field trip that will probably never happen but is fun to think about.

Rainbow

   Okay, so I've made up my mind. I received good feedback on my last post, (thank you, Amanda) but there was one problem: I didn't enjoy writing it. Since I get to write what I choose on here, I might as well make it something I like doing. So here's my decision: this blog is a journal, not an advice column. My subtitle reads "the scribblings of a crazy author." That's what these are going to be. Scribblings. This is a place where I don't have to worry about grammar, proper form, or organizing my thoughts. A place where I can forget about every piece of writing advice I ever heard (which is what I do anyway, during my first draft) and just enjoy doing what I enjoy doing: expressing myself. This is where I just pour a rainbow of colors onto the page and see how it turns out. I'm going back to once a week. It's easier now that I don't have to think about.